Psalm 36 (CSB)
6 Your righteousness is like the highest mountains, your judgments like the deepest sea. LORD, you preserve people and animals.
I search this earth for something that is good and holy none I can find I see semblances but none fulfilling
But you lead me to your word your word speaks of you I see that you alone are good holy justified merciful gracious loving righteous we are so far from you
I see my own heart I am an infinite distance from your presence.
Who would bridge this gap?
Is it I?
Let me try my best let me abstain from sin let me not look at porn let me not lust after someone eclipses let me not steal let me not life let me not swell in predestined let me fail not in helping those in need let me do good.
Oh but everything I do is infected with sin I see it because I know it in my heart
When I am helpful I do so in order for people to like me
When I am nice I want people to think I am good but if they could see my heart if they could see the thoughts of my mind they would run continuously they judge me wanting.
But you saw the depths of my soul even beyond what I can see in the darkness and despair you did not shudder you did not look away you took pity on this old fool you gave me your Son you gave me your Spirit you gave me your inheritance your daily mercies your sweetest grace your steadfast love forever.
Keep me in palms of your hands O Lord I stand on the spoken word of your Son that no one not anything Satan death demons hell can take me from your hands I know you will never let me go.
Keep me in your heart speak into my soul write your words in my heart that I may never sin against you.