Praying Through: Psalm 34:4
The Psalm
Psalm 34 (CSB)
4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me and rescued me from all my fears.
The Prayer
Essence of Faith
For all of my life
- I have pretended to be in fear of nothing
And certainly not you
But I was crippled
- by fears of
- rejection
- betrayal
- abandonment
- and not being loved
I did whatever
- I could to harden my heart
- so I wouldn’t have to feel.
But I was sad
- alone
- confused
- angry
- and bitter.
- I was so lonely.
- And my life was worth nothing.
And remember when I tried to be the good guy? Outside I was nice and honorable.
- But on the inside?
- Full of wickedness and sin.
- Heart was filled with perversion.
I am afraid
- but I know this to be true:
- a million times more wicked
- than my dad.
Oh Lord. My heart is bent toward lust and sin. Save me Lord. Do what you must. I cannot cannot cannot go back to hell I refuse to. I will not.
You must do what you need to do to ensure that I don’t go back there.
Save me Lord. Do what you will to keep me from there and to you and in you and by you forever.
Amen.