Psalm 32:3 (CSB) When I kept silent, my bones became brittle from my groaning all day long.
I will never forget the darkness enveloping me my emotions drained out of me I no longer desired life my brain was shut down I was dead and I wanted to die.
The deepest despair and the darkest night and the most chaotic state and the madness that ensues and I am dying and I am being crushed I am without hope I have nothing I didn't have the strength nor the wherewithal to even form a thought to reach out and ask for help.
But you instilled one truth I am lead by your Spirit because you adopted me as your son and I have your Spirit and I am no longer in fear
But you bear witness with my spirit the spirit you gave me and the life you gave me that I am yours and you are mine
And you have given me everything because you gave me your precious Son.
I might suffer for a little and I cry in despair and my tears flood my pillow but your joy always comes in the morning because that is when your mercies are waiting for me more assure than the sun rising in the east.
Great is your faithfulness, O Lord.
Great is your faithfulness.