Praying Through: Psalm 32:3a

The Psalm

Psalm 32:3 (CSB) When I kept silent, my bones became brittle from my groaning all day long.

The Prayer

I will never forget

• the darkness enveloping me
• my emotions drained out of me
• I no longer desired life
• my brain was shut down
• I was dead
• and I wanted to die.

The deepest despair

• and the darkest night
• and the most chaotic state
• and the madness that ensues
• and I am dying
• and I am being crushed
• I am without hope
• I have nothing
• I didn't have the strength
• nor the wherewithal
• to even form a thought
• to reach out and ask for help.

But you

• instilled one truth
• I am lead by your Spirit
• because you adopted me as your son
• and I have your Spirit
• and I am no longer in fear

But you

• bear witness with my spirit
• the spirit you gave me
• and the life you gave me
• that I am yours
• and you are mine

And you

• have given me everything
• because you gave me your precious Son.

I might suffer for a little

• and I cry in despair
• and my tears flood my pillow
• but your joy always comes in the morning
• because that is when your mercies are waiting for me
• more assure than the sun rising in the east.

Great is your faithfulness, O Lord.

Great is your faithfulness.