Rescuer How many times do I fall back into the depths of the ocean to drown in my own sin to return back to my vomit to die another death to run away from you? How many times do you love me do you care for me do you keep me do you find me do you rescue me How many stars are there? How many grains of sand? How many drops of ocean?...
Savior I sit in the darkness once again I have been here before this a quiet and cold place where I can smell the sin waiting for me to sleep. All of the pain all of the loss all of the sin that I have ever experienced has brought me back to this place and it is cold and dark where I can almost make out the evil waiting for me to lay down My sickness my sin my disease my brokenness are now my companions And every time I come back here I would be devoured and eating to the near last bite and you would come and get me and keep my soul....
Worthy is Your Power I have seen texts empty promises words feelings good intentions exchanges hopes doubts knowledge wisdom charity love that could try to fix me. I was beyond repair nothing on this earth would make me whole would seal my heart would fulfill eternity inside right my mind open my eyes unmute my tongue unplug my ears clear my mind give a beat to my heart give me life....
Worthy is Your Grace I will never stop writing words sing songs mulling thoughts sleeping in my dreams reading books dwelling in your word filled with your Spirit to try do my best to express the grace that you have drowned me in lavished upon my life that is more than all the riches in the world more than the deepest minds the greatest wisdom all the love all of everything....
Worthy Are You to Be Praised Who alone who saves the helpless and the weak the far and the lost the powerless and the downtrodden the slave and the oppressed the wicked and the sinful the blind and the deaf the mute and the dumb But who Lord when I was oppose to your will when my every breath commit treason against your holiness when my every thought was dipped in wickedness and sin when my every heartbeat longed to be my own god But who Lord saw me in my wickedness in my deceit in my folly in my stupidness in my ignorance in my sin and had the deepest affection for me....
Worthy is the Lamb There is none like you the Savior of my soul the Love of my heart the Giver of my salvation the Redeemer of my existence the Absorber of my just wrath the Remover of my sins the Adopter of this child the Mercy of my every morning the Grace upon your grace the Love that steadfastly me so. I love you Lord and I will forever praise your holy name....
You Are My Goodness The worst has absolutely befallen me I have already tasted death I have already lost everything two times over I have nothing But you appeared and rescued me one million and one times over and you will forever do it again because you have set your love upon me and you will never let me go and you will keep me in your bosom all of my days....
You Are My God My enemies feebly failed to destroy me They attacked me from all sides They have punctured my heart with all of their fiery arrows surely I was dead my soul was gone. But I belong to you you are my everlasting God who have sent His Son to live and die for me so that I will never perish but have everlasting life. Your love is what my life runs on....
You Are My Rest Most of my life I have fought against you blasphemed your holy name was slave to my own lusts continue to hating everybody and including myself. But with all of my life you set your affections upon me loved me with love I have never known gave me grace everywhere and was so merciful and kind towards me despite my anger and rage and sin against you I still cannot believe that you would love me at my very worst in my darkest pain in my deepest shame you saw me knowing I was dead and brought me to life....
You Are My Strength I will never forget my deepest sins my anguish my torment my chaos my own iniquity And you were so far I thought I knew you and I could not see your face All that appeared to me was darkness and dread and death and disease and wickedness. I did not knew you well enough because your hand was always on my soul your grace always surrounded me your righteousness always clothed me your peace was placed in my heart....
You Are With Me The battles I have seen The bloodshed upon my hands The hurt I have caused The wounds I have made Was all of my actions. I have been hurt too And that does not make it right I am sorry Lord For the hurt I have caused. Will you save me? Will you give me a tender heart To forgive others And love others And to seek reconcilation and help heal others?...
You Are My Stronghold I pray that all of my sworn enemies have sought to destroy me kill me hurt me maim me torture me and weaken me that they would all be saved by your hand with your love in the blood of your Son by the power of your Spirit. I will say this once because they are not my enemies but prisoners of war a war they cannot see and death is already upon them....
You Are My Quick Answer No matter what has happened to me For I have been molested raped left to starve kidnapped Held for hostage Homeless Loveless Orphan Lost Divorced Twice Lost my kids Lost my jobs Lost my friends And my homes. I am sinner filled with lust worked in porn stolen cheated lied lazy full of rage Filled with wrath Filled with pride Hater of everyone Hater of women Hater of self....
You Are My Protector I have been surrounded by evil Left exposed And vulnerable To Satan and Demons Who feed upon my flesh And leave me to perish. My God How did you know Where I needed help How could you love Someone like me I have been unloved and unwanted All of my life But you came along And brought me to you And kept me in your heart....
You Are My Trust I have spent all of my life Being scared Being fearful of man And worrying about what did they think of me My eyes were never Where they should have been They should have been fixated On the only one Who answers my cries quiets my soul Cares for my heart Loves me till the end And brings me all the way home. Breath life into me When I turn away And start to be anxious and fearing man Man cannot save me Man cannot soothe me Man cannot save my soul Only you, my Lord Can save me And love me And heal me....
You Are My Help I don't pretend to understand Or can even teach Or comprehend Why you would answer my prayers. But just like those in the Bible, I called on you And you answered And you rescued me. Sometimes I will pray And you will not answer my questions I have taken that to mean I will wait upon the Lord Because you alone are my refuge and strength My portion My help in my very hour of need....
You Are My Deliverer I have seen so many evils in my life And I thought I had so many enemies Because they have wounded me And attempted to destroy me. I have come close to the edge of death Because I was desperate for your love And I cannot bear to live one more moment Under persecution and torment. I was already weak. The schemes of the devil? They worked....
You Are My Mercy My presence My life My words My actions Boldly proclaim, "There is no God!" I sinned when I wanted And never repented No intention of Because I thought I was be fulfilled I thought porn was caring for me I thought lust was healing me. But my sins Chew on my bones And gnawed on my flesh And I was immune to the pain And could not see what it was doing....
You Are My Faithful Love Everything that I have And all that I got It is in you. I have nowhere else to go And no one else to turn to You are my righteousness In you, I will trust. I will bless your name forever I will worship your name on high I will proclaim your word to everyone I will preach your gospel to the end I will love you forever I will fear you for my life I will be still And know you are my God....
You Are My Restoration I cannot fall back into wickedness I cannot sin again I cannot be apart from you I cannot I don't want to live If I cannot be in your presence You life is my life And I choose not to live without you. Any sin left on my heart I need you wash it away Bring it up Give me the gift of repentance So I can turn away And turn to you....
You Are My Judge My sins before you can stretch to the furthest galaxies can fill the oceans can corrupt my soul can tangle my flesh can rot my mind can breaks my heart can steal any love I have in me. At one time you counted me wicked because I was wicked I was treasonous because I made war against you with my mind my heart and my desires....
You Are The Fulfillment of My Desires I am so ashamed because I have tried so hard to take the things of this world with me to the end and foolishly beyond the end. I pat myself on the back and congratulate myself for not chasing after wealth power or anything else and called myself holy and worthy to be in your presence. But the one thing I sought for all of my days was not you never you but to fulfill the lusts I had within my heart....
You Are My Dwelling I have been surrounded by all iniquity temptation waits for me sin is drawing ever so closely. The demons seek and wait for my moments of weakness which I am continuously frail surely I will be devoured. Satan attempts one last time to destroy your son to crush me with the weight of my own sin surely I will be buried. But you have appeared not just one time rescuer but the all-time destroyer of evil the everlasting protector the risen conquerer....
You Are My Dwelling I will sing of all of your done of your salvation of my soul of your goodness to me of your provision when I have nothing of your presence when I was alone. I will proclaim that you alone are good that you alone are righteous that you alone are worthy that you alone are holy holy holy. I will preach that Christ came to save sinners of whom I am the foremost that Christ came to save His people from their sins that Christ is gentle and lowly and will take our sins of Christ alone and him crucified....
You Are My Refuge You alone are my righteousness and my exalted Lord who rules and reigns in the heavens. Majesty and my Love who can do what you have done? My circumstances and my time here on earth do not define me nor do my sins nor do my actions nor do my desires nor does my heart. Only you King Jesus give me all of my identity and worth and value....
You Are My Bridegroom And now you are finished my Lord and now all the kingdoms power glory belong to you alone. Yours is the kingdom and you are exalted above all. Yours is the treasure for you alone are the rightful heir to all of Creation. Be exalted, O God I shall worship you all of my days there is none like you. Amen. ...
You Are My King Before Christ I was without strength I would succumb to the enemy day and night. Before Christ I was without glory I would lose all of my battles and torn to pieces. Before Christ I was filled with sin my consequences and my enemies would have surely put me to death. But Christ stepped in rescued me clothed me gave me food gave me strength gave me protection and gave me the one thing I never have everlasting love....
My Only Vindicator When will I know when those who would cause me harm have hurt me betrayed me abandoned me and discard me that I am sorrowful for that hurt and I grieve and I am angry for what was done because I have been hurt But for most of my life I have let that fester into rage vengeance and wrath It has taken me all of my life to know that rage is a sin vengeance belongs to you, O Lord and you alone are deserving of wrath But here is the key in you great love you sent your Son so that for your people for the salvation of those you have elected you pour your wrath not on us but on your Son because he is the Worthy Lamb that was slain holy holy holy is he Cleansed my heart of my wickedness in thinking I am God I am not Never will I be you Save us and keep us in your mercy shower us with grace and give us your steadfast love for all of our days I love you Lord thank you for saving me Save those whom I know and care for and love Amen ...
Only Giver of Life When you found me I was a swollen corpse at the bottom of the ocean I was a dried up river in the middle of a burning desert I was frozen death in a icy wasteland I was completely dead I had no life to call upon you I had no heart to beat towards you My hands and feet were death and I stunk like a rotting corpse with sin-maggots eating away at my terrible heart Surely I was left for dead But you saw me and not only had pity on me but more so you gave me favor you lavished your grace and you extended your mercy You saw me in my desperate wickedness my unholy wretchedness my perversion wanton lusts and you loved me you cared for me you saved me you predestined me you called me you justified me and only because your promises are the only sure thing you have glorified me You are my Lord and my God there is none like you Amen and amen ...
Savior of All I will guard my mouth and my heart to not speak ill of those who are in abundance who do as they seem what is right in their own eyes and live as there is no God I pray for them that you quickly save them as I pray this prayer and say these words O Lord, I need you to be gracious to me heal my broken heart for I continuously sin against you I went about my days being worthless and foolish disobedient to all of your law deceived by the prince of the air enslaved by the lusts of my heart and the idols of my mind living in violent opposition to you hated by others and hating one another But when you appeared to me on that rainy Monday afternoon when I just sinned against you you saved me I have done nothing righteous in your eyes but you alone where completely merciful to me and you exchanged my sin-filled cancerous granite heart for your tender soft heart and you washed me clean and you renewed me with your Spirit to whom there is no end I bath in your Spirit because your Son spoken and gave me Him and now I am a wicked sinner justified by Your grace and now I am an adopted child who now inherits everything that you gave your Son Be exalted, my God Be exalted, higher and higher Amen ...
My Lord of All You called upon me and I am your servant and I heard your voice I will wait upon you to give me the command to preaching your good news to the lost the lonely the widowed the orphan the prisoner I have waited for years and I will wait until you shower me with grace until you fill me with your Spirit like you did with your Son and you open my mouth they will not hear my voice nor will they hear my words they will hear you calling to them speaking to them raising the name of your Son Jesus Christ far above their sin and idols and draw everyone to you So until that faithful day when you judged me faithful and appointed to your service I will sit still and wait upon the Lord I will meditate on your precious love I will praying and seek your face I will rejoice and be glad in you I will praise your holy name forever and ever Amen ...
The King of my Soul, In fury, wrath injustice vengeance rage and anger I cried out not in righteousness of your Son but if I examine my heart for a second in my own self-righteousness I share posts memes quotes to try to take away the pain when I should have been grieving crying interceding and praying because you have saw our iniquity and you have withheld your mercy and you have judged our land unholy and unpleasing to you....
My Everlasting Father, I will never forget the moment when I stood and asked for help I was being tormented and persecuted for the sake of sin and I have always been low because of other people's sin But those people who are not my enemies are not in my control. When I stood and I begged, "They keep doing this to me, help me to control myself help me to cease giving myself the permission to sin against the Holy God....
My Only Gift of Righteousness All of my days were filled with evil treason unholiness vile and dread before you. I was once foolish disobedient led astray a slave to various passions and pleasures passing my days in malice and envy hated by others and hating others. But when you appeared, O Lord you brought your goodness and loving kindness and you saved me Not because of anything I have ever done or will ever do but only because of your great mercy and you washed me my giving me a clean heart and filling me richly with your Holy Spirit....
My One Avenger When I am hurt when people hurt me when they attack me when they do their worse. Help me to take no offense to take my pain to you, O God because on your Son is all of my sin treason disease pain and suffering That belongs to you. I will no longer live on offense by angry by destruction by pain bv sin because you have called me to live in your Son alone Be my love, O Lord....
My One Joy I write with my words all the time that these people who have warred against me when they have sought to end my life when they have chipped away at my heart they are not my enemies but they have been captured by the Enemy. I know this truly but I cannot help to feel the pain from the wounds they have left. My God, you have granted me repentance when I have sinned against you and you were quick to forgive me....
My Only Lamb whom was Slained, Holy, holy, holy are you, my Lord. Human history and my life is filled with everybody being mighty when they are weak and conquering over the less fortunate and the weaker persons Truth be told we are all weak and feeble. Our strength amounts to nothing Our minds know nothing Our hearts are cold and embittered Our souls have nothing next to you and who you are....
My Only God I repent of a life that exacted vengeance for my wounds revenge for my pain justice for wrongs against me. I repent for being wrathful. You, O Lord, are the ONLY being deserving of justice because you have been wronged deserving of vengeance because you have been hurt wrathful because you are jealous for me. Lord, I am repenting of when I thought I was you. Beat this out of me make me your servant keep me as your friend love me as your lover Be my Lord and my God forever....
My One Rock I examine my life filled with despair chaos confusion darkness death. And your love have pierced through it all into my heart and gave me life when I was dead joy when there was sorrow pleasure when all I have ever known is pain weakness when I have tried to be strong humility when I was filled with pride righteousness when the world excused my lusts holiness when I was sin....
My One Commitment I love you Lord and you are my heart's desire for all of my days I want to be by your side and dwell with you and waste my days with you because you are the Lord of my life and the love of my heart. How amazing that you would look upon my sinful heart and thought of love at first sight there is none like you there is none beside you I stake all of my hope and trust in you you are my God and my Lord forever you are the center and totality of my heart you are my will and my desire....
The Only Holder of My Heart I have one prayer: give me your heart. for mine is frail and weak and corrupted with sin. it is made of stone and gives me no life it gives wickedness and seeks to only destroy me. If I had your heart, surely I will live surely I will be in your grace surely I will give others your grace I will see others in the a new light that you love them with all of your heart and your desire was to save them Grant me a new heart, O Lord then my desires will not be for this world but for they will be for you alone....
The Only One Worthy of My Trust What is my life, O Lord, that I have spent most of my years trusting in gods that weak and stupid and couldn't save themselves. What is my mind, O Lord, that my very nature is incline not to think of you but of the things of the world as though anything in the material plane could actually give me an ounce of real joy....
My Only Source What is our lives, O Lord that we would be counted as precious that you would be mindful of us that you would set your affections upon us that you would give your grace to us and you would want to cherish us? But Lord, we are here for a moment our lives are but a blink your word says, like dew on grass until the early morning sun scorches the fields and burns us all away....
My Only Unforgettable Love Keep your love upon me do not let me go do not turn your back on me do not forget me do not forsake me If I am arrogant then discipline me If I am wicked then wash me clean If I am evil then make me holy. Whatever you can do to keep me close then do it. Because I want you and nobody else and not even sin nor things of this world would be worth be one second apart from your love....
My Only Steadfast Love I love you, Lord but only for a little while. I have known you for most of my life but loved you just a little. I have seen your love for me started with my grandmother and then my mom My family is wicked and deceived and I had no inheritance. I was introduced to the revolting evil at an age when I should have not known and that sin quickly overcame my heart and infected my soul....
My Only Path I search this earth for something that is good and holy none I can find I see semblances but none fulfilling But you lead me to your word your word speaks of you I see that you alone are good holy justified merciful gracious loving righteous we are so far from you I see my own heart I am an infinite distance from your presence. Who would bridge this gap?...
My Only Righteousness I search this earth for something that is good and holy none I can find I see semblances but none fulfilling. But you led me to your word and your word speaks of you. I see that you alone are good holy justified merciful gracious loving and righteous. And we are so far from you I even see my own heart and I am an infinite distant from your presence....
My Only Deliverer How often do I preach against the sin in others guilt deep in the hearts of men and as they continue to plot in vain as if there is no God. But my life was filled to the hilt with my own wickedness perversions that few can know evil that cause some to shudder sin that churns and burns in my heart mind and soul continuously. I was one of these worthless men that sinned all the more I was ill-deserving of any leniency I could not afford grace....
My Only Love My life I have only experienced enemies trying to take my life attempting to end me my soul my heart and my mind. They have used me for their own wickedness and to fulfill their hearts of sin and to dispose me like I am trash. I am burn with anger because I feel powerless but my eyes see who are my enemies who have vowed to draw me away from you and that fills me with rage....
My Conquering God You descended to the cross with great joy. You faced Death and called out Life You bear the weight of my complete sin You gave yourself over and allowed them to nail you to the cross They mocked others grieved. your heart was pierced your love washed over your body broken your Spirit remained until the justified wrath of God was meant for me was finished pouring on you When you cried out, "IT IS FINISHED!...
My Only Shield of Salvation I remembered being attacked all of my days and having no will to fight succumbing to the attacks of Satan easily like a sheep like a prisoner of war tortured for entertainment to despise your holy name. When you saved me, your hand was upon me your shield protected me you healed my heart you mended my bones you restored my soul. But just as David called his mighty men you called on me there are numerous giants to be slain for Satan and his demons have sharpened their arrows quickened their aim sure their shots....
The Sovereign Power over my life My God, if I was raped tortured bruised afflicted pressed crushed beaten sicken destroyed attacked for all of my days If I faced unspeakable evil acts against me I will call upon you to give me your Son to give me your Spirit to raise my lowly head to open my eyes to see your lovely face once more to take me home My life before you was everything evil was none of it good it was torturous crushing back-breaking afflicting because of the sheer weight of all of my sins....
My Life and Heart Why would you spare me? I have seen the evil that men have done I have seen their sins stacked up miles above oceans deep filling the earth with treachery and debauchery My sins filled more overfill all oceans and canyons I have done more evil in your sight than all of humanity I am the supreme chief of sinners But yet you saw me not the good that I could ever do but the wickedness that was in me and you pitied me because I was a fool and you sought me because I was lost and you loved me because I was completely unlovable When I saw your glory from the deepest, darkest parts of my heart I cried out in agony and pain, "HAVE MERCY ON ME, A SINNER!...
My All-Good My lips have spoken evil because my heart was filled with wickedness. My eyes saw lustful things because my heart was filled with sin. My ears desired fleshy things because my heart was filled with cancer. How can I even see good when I filled with evil and contempt? How can I even keep my tongue from evil and deceit when all I know is sin. How can I turn away from evil when all I have done is chase after my gods....
Infinite holder of my infinite space I have sought all of my life to prey on the weak to consume to my stomach's content to try to fill my heart with everything my sin's desires the world and it's pleasures the sweetest temptations of the devil My God, you knew me and loved me you sought me and rescued me when I was in the mud at the bottom of the ocean and was dead in my trespasses....
The Absolute Longings of my Heart My God I have suffered so much due to all the sin I’ve committed all the righteous acts that I have failed to do and all the wickedness done to me. I was destined to die I was limited to this world and it’s smallish pleasures that fulfill nothing in my eternal heart. And because I am a son of Adam I feared only everything not Godx My attention was away from you My gaze was away from your face My heart flees from you Capture my heart Again and again Capture my love until I know no other love Capture my life until you take me home forever Tell me your will so I can do it Tell me your heart so I can see if my heart matches and repent if not Tell me I am yours forever so I can be alive and free in you Praise your holy name forever ...
All of my desires and affections What did your Son say? Eat of my flesh Drink of my blood For God alone is good. There is no other manna but your Son. There is no Bread of life other than your Son. There is no other Living Water other than your Son. There is no life outside of your Son. I will taste and see because my Lord alone is good For in him I live and move and have my being I will forever make a joyful noise I am so weak so be my strength I am so filled with sin so grant me your Son’s righteousness I am so far so send your Spirit to bring me home I am an orphan My God, adopt me as your own....
My Awe and Wonder We know that sins crouched for us. We know that the devil sets his snares for our souls. We know that the world beckons our hearts towards death. But you alone are worthy to be praised You alone are holy and holy and holy You alone are righteous for there is none like you I will worship you I will give you praise I will sing of your wondrous works I will marvel at your law I will dance in your heart I will repent of all my sin I will trust in your Son Because you have loved me Because your Son lived and died for me Because your Spirit bears witness with my spirit that I am a son of God....
My everything I lack. I am weak. I have nothing. I am poor. I am dead. Whatever I have is from you. This roof upon my head. Clothes on my back. My warm bed. My beautiful wife. My wonderful children. My running cars. My vocation. All of it comes from you alone. But I have everything. I am wealthy beyond measure. I am strong. I am the richest. I am fully alive....
Fairest of ten-thousands My God. Keep me close to you. Let me see your face. Just this once. So I can behold your beauty. If I die then so be it. Because I rather see you and die then to never see your face and never fully live. My God keep my eyes on your eyes my heart on your heart and my soul connected to yours. Whatever work you must do in me do it....
Essence of Faith For all of my life I have pretended to be in fear of nothing And certainly not you But I was crippled by fears of rejection betrayal abandonment and not being loved I did whatever I could to harden my heart so I wouldn’t have to feel. But I was sad alone confused angry and bitter. I was so lonely. And my life was worth nothing. And remember when I tried to be the good guy?...
Deliverer from Death People of God, inhabitants of the world dwellers in the city Turn your eyes upon God look at his amazing love His grace is for you! You do not have to die in your sin He will rescue you! He will pull you from hell You say, "I have no sin" then you are condemned already but those in Christ there is no condemnation You say, "There is no hell" but to those who do not trust and obey the Son the wrath of God remains upon you!...
Blessed is He With my lips I will speak blessings to my God With my hands I will bless others for my Christ With my feet I will bring peace for my Savior With my mind I will think upon my Redeemer With my strength I will depend upon the Almighty. With my portion it will only come from my All-in-all With my heart I will love the Lord at all times Jesus the Worthy Lamb who was slain glorious and mighty are you mercy and power are at your hands grace and love are from your heart Be exalted in everything I do I will worship you forever I will you alone are my God....
My Holy Shield Is there some sort of target on me? Why has the enemy been so focused on my life? Why is it that with every single foolish decision I have made, Satan has used it to drag me back in the darkness where I once lived? And why does the world keep trying to pull me back into the life that I once lived? I know that life I have been scorched by that hell....
My Only Rescuer In my darkest moments, greatest fears deepest pains I would never turn to you and instead I would flee to idols and gods that I thought would ease the pain soothe my anxiety save my soul. My idols were lust my gods were pornography when I was thirsty I would insist on drinking crap-infused toilet water But you rescued me you have kept my eyes upon you you have turn my face and my heart to you the source of everlasting joy....
My God I know that all of mankind will wonder into ungodliness will stray into wickedness and by their own sin, fall away in ignorance. I was once atheistic evil blasphemous ignorant in unbelief But yet You gave me more grace with the faith and love that can only be found in your Son. My God, we know that you see us you know we are not good we know that you do not overlord us to condemn us But you’ve sent your Son to save us....
Reigning King We read in your word where you have called a tiny nation unto you to carry out your promises to established your covenants. Perhaps for a moment this nation would worship you praise you and love you. But not even a generation would pass before they worship other gods distrust you and fall far away from you. That is just like any of us that is just like me I have cling to other idols I have not given you a second thought I have hated you....
Preacher of the Lost Souls What does your word say? Your word goes out and does it sets to accomplishes and never returns void? You have made promises to Adam to Noah to Abraham to David and to all the prophets That you will send the One who would crush the head of the serpent that is Jesus Christ the Savior of his people the Redeemer of our sins the Messiah of the nations the Conquerer of Satan the Vanquisher of demons the Wrath-filler of hell the Glory of the cosmos And this is perfectly true and now you have captured our hearts....
Sovereign We have made the grandest plans devised the biggest schemes and planned our legacy that we are so certain that lives on. But you are alone rule and reign over all of creation sets up and takes down kings determines the times and boundaries of our dwelling Because you are not merely in the present but also currently in the past because you are from everlasting to everlasting and you are currently in the future because you are the God who is there....
Lover of my soul You are the only being when you speak things actually happen When you promise they are unbreakable When you declare it is so When you proclaim it comes to pass. All of your promises are yes and amen. So when I hear your voice, when you beckon me from the depths of hades when you spoke a new identity in me when you called my name I answered....
My Fear and my Joy I sit and make no excuses for my sin blinds me my wickedness keeps me deaf my trespasses rob my smarts my treason born death in me. I could not see your glory I was blind and cannot see and not thing in me could process your beauty. I had no frame no knowledge no heart no love no life. Therefore I did not fear you....
God of the Cosmic The galaxies fall right into the palm of your hand, the universe are in your grasp the stars are named by you Jupiter is but a little toy to you the sun is pinched between your finger and thumb We have been here for the length of the creation and yet we do not know the depths of the oceans we are powerless to gather up a ocean wave But you, my Lord, gathered all the material plane at your mere fingertips....
Creator and Redeemer You are majestic and altogether mighty. You alone brought something out of nothing. You alone can do that. When you created me, you did so from what was created. Out of dirt. But you also created me out of your heart because of your love for me. And you created me out of your begotten for He was the firstborn among many brethen. Because of my sin I was destined to go back into dirt apart from you and under your wrath....
My Eternal Righteousness I have spent a lifetime ignoring this precious truth that you loved the world so much that you sent your only begotten Son to live and die for his people to rise again to champion over death hell Satan demons sin. For those who want to live with you forever we would only need to believe in you trust in you obey your word and take you at your word....
The Absolute of All His Promises, I remember when you fulfilled your word in the gospel to Adam and Eve in the promise to Noah and his family in the covenant to Abraham in your example with Saul in your steadfastness to David in your wisdom with Soloman in your keep with Isaiah in your tower with Jeremiah in your instructions with Hosea in your mystery with Daniel in your glory with Ezekiel in your ending with Malachi That you alone would send a Savior bring a Messiah to crush the enemy to keep your justice sure out of a family upon the throne to rescue His beloved to save His people from their sins to adopted into your family to be redeemed of their past to be resurrected to glory to never perish to never see corruption to never see hell to the fullness of life to the presence of unending joy to pleasures forevermore That is Jesus Christ the fulfiller of the law the keeper of the promises the worthy lamb that was slain the absorber of wrath the burden of my sin the bearer of my sorrows the welcomer of my trespasses the seed of Abraham the righteousness of me the lover of my soul the love of my heart I am my Beloved and he is mine forever....
Only One Worthy of all my praises Who was the only one who created the heavens from a thought who created the earth from a whisper? Who was the only one from deep love and passionate affections for a desire to create a perfect relationship with a creation out of a perfect community? Who was the only one who preached his perfect standard who grieved when we rebelled who filled with sorrow when we wage war against you who cried when we turned away from you?...
The Lyrics of the Sweetest Songs With my voice with every breath I will shout out I will cry out I will sing your holy name I will dance with joy Because you alone are good worthy beautiful lovely wonderful peace joy exalted and raised far above all of my gods I will worship you forever I will worship there is none like you ...
My Joy and Righteousness When I was a beast before you a worm beneath the dirt a blasphemer of your holy name an accuser of your beloved people a violent opponent of your dwelling a blind fool of your glory a ignorant recipient of your tender mercies a stonewall to your amazing grace a rejecter of your great love a dead man in my own sins You thought of me you stirred your affections for me you loved me you chose me you called me you saved me you gave me faith you washed away my sins you regenerated my heart you filled me with your Spirit you changed my mind you opened my eyes you cleared my ears you unmuted my tongue you adopted me you called me your own you lavished you affections upon me you justified me you discipline me you sanctify me you conform me to look like your Son you wash me in the water of your word you pour out mercies on me you give me grace upon grace you forever love me you glorified me Only then and now my heart is filled with joy my soul stands upright in your presence my being dwells with you my mind captures thoughts towards you my strength chokes out my sin do I love you Be my love....
Man of sorrows I have spent much of my life not turning to you not loving you and not trusting in you. And my sorrows and grief fill my heart. I am sorrowful because of my own sins and wickedness before you I grieve because I wish I have only known you all of my life You have been my God before since I was in my mother's womb since I nursed at her breasts since I knew how to walk And you pursued me when sin encroached and preyed on my flesh You loved me when I was being devoured and consumed And you rescued me I see you and I hear you and I know you love me because there is no other who could care for me love me so tenderly and perfectly save me I love you Lord and I will worship you my Redeemer....
Spirit of Christ Without you, I am completely ignorant of you. There are not enough classes in the world to sit and learn about you. There are not enough books to sit and read to know you. All the data in the world multiplied one billion fold couldn't even contain what the Son has done what the Father has thought let alone how You move. All knowledge, wisdom, and understanding philosophies, logic, reason science, medicine, and technology comes from you and is all your own....
To the Rock of Ages The world and the Prince of the Air and his demons have left me to rot to die to drown in the middle of the ocean to be consumed by the waves to let my soul fall into hell. They care not for my soul, it does not bother them if I live or if I die It is better for them if I was to be destroyed....
God of my little belief Oh how many times, O Lord, have I whispered nothings gave half-hearted thanks prayed and did not believe spoke and did not think it was real. When I was an ungodly husband and my weak non-prayers were unanswered When I was a sinful subject and any other king would ignore me or worse yet have me executed for high treason? But that is not you....
The Cover of my Iniquity How long, O Lord, when I have not confess to you when I have spoken of my evil when I thought, "The Lord forgives" and I no longer will be burdened with you. But burden with my wickedness, I was. My pretend ignorance failed me My own heart betrays me. and I was crushed under my iniquity and I was suppressed by my unrighteousness. But you have sent your Son to change my mind to speak life into my dead flesh to exchange my rock heart for your soft heart to borne my grief to carry my sorrow to be stricken for me to be smitten for me to be afflicted for me and pierced for my transgression and crushed for my iniquity....
My Judge and Mercy Alone Every sin against me does not counter any of my sins. Their sins are their sins. My sins are my sins. And you will judge accordingly. But I know of your perfection, your beauty your majesty your holiness and your righteousness. If you looked upon me, you will see my treason my affairs my thoughts my heart's desires my lusts my wickedness! And by that, you will be left wanting....
My God While I tried to ignore and even excuse the pain caused me. My body never forgets. While I will make excuses and blameshift my sins against others My soul remembers. Your forgiveness does not erase my wrongdoings. But your Son's blood covers my trespasses. Help me to cry out to you, for you are my Lord and my God you are my Savior and Messiah you are my Friend and my Brother you are the only one who cared for me....
My Only Redeemer I am filled with iniquity, Lord, look at my sins? How can you not count my wickedness against me? Are you a god that turns his head and ignores evil? Or do you call something a sin not a sin and allow it to run rampant and destroy everything that you alone have created and that you have loved? My Lord, you did not ignore my sin you did not turn the other way you did not declare evil not evil....
My Only Good How many times have I have sin against you done wickedness in your sight submitted myself to perversion blasphemed your holy name persecuted those who love you and violently opposed your righteousness? All of my sins, I cannot count that high. They would outnumber the stars in the sky, and the sands upon the shore. For my heart does evil continually, it is desperately sick at it's core....
The Strength of My Heart My Lord, if it be your will and under your grace alone, allow me your humble servant and your little child to preach your good news to the whole world. You are my Love and my Heart, there is none like you. You are Savior of the world, there is none like you. You are more beautiful, and the fairest of 10,000 there is none like you....
My Steadfast Lover Who is like you, my Lord, clothed in majesty and who alone is good. When I have realized the extent of my pain the depths of my sin the torment of my evil soul the wickedness of the Devil and the infection of my heart. I called upon you and swiftly, you answered me. "Here I am!" and in your gentleness and loving kindness and grace abounding saved me to yourself....
The All Good My Lord, my life bears witness that you alone protect me shield me provide for me and place your loving arms wrapped around me. You hold me like a child, for I am just as vulnerable and would be devoured by dogs if it was not for you. I praise your holy name for you are Lord Most High. So be exalted in my life and with my words....
Savior of My Life How many times, my Lord, was I left for dead? The amount of people who wished me dead were too many to count. I have been abused, and used for others' perverse sins. I have been forgotten, and not attended to my needs. I have been exposed, and called a liar. But you, O my God, are the only one who has saved me. Many people want to save me but lack the will and the power....
Savior of My Life How many times, my Lord, was I left for dead? The amount of people who wished me dead were too many to count. I have been abused, and used for others' perverse sins. I have been forgotten, and not attended to my needs. I have been exposed, and called a liar. But you, O my God, are the only one who has saved me. Many people want to save me but lack the will and the power....
Keeper of my heart I have spent all of my days wandering from your presence searching for new idols finding new ways to sin against you And my life aches and groans in pain, not only of the sin against me but mostly because of my own sin. Lord, hear my cries do not abandon me do not let me see evil do not take your Spirit from me Lord, I have no idea of what you’ve called me but it will not be easy and it will take all of your grace and you must give me your heart and Spirit for me to do your will....
Lover of my soul I cry and grieve for those who do not know you. I pray that their hearts would be turned towards you. You have rescued me countless times. And all I have ever found was your loving grace. Lord, you did not abandon me Not to hell Not to sin Not to this world Not to Satan Not to demons Not to death You rescued me with your compassion....
My Only Incomparable Who is like you, God? And who would compare to you? You are my everything And since birth, you have protected me you have guided me even when I wanted to run away you have always brought be back home. **You have not abandoned me to hell** even when the world the discarded me as trash and everybody has despised me and Satan has come to destroyed me and his demons keep me in disarray and my own sin defiles me But you, O Lord, are my heart's desire and I long to worship you....
My Only Savior Who is like you, God? and who compares to you? You alone are worthy of honor of praise of worship for all of my days. The world critiques ridicules slams kills destroys. But you are the only Savior, who pulls me from hell brings me to your bosom and gives me peaceful rest because you alone are grace. Because you have declared me to be your child, do not ignore me....
Precious Redeemer I am going to worship you, all of my days for all of my life for all that I have. I can declare this in boldness nothing of my own strength and I have no righteousness to speak of. Because I have seen the fullness of your grace, and the ongoing gift of kindness the daily portion of mercies every morning and the steadfastness of your love. I have failed but you are God....
My God My days here are just for a moment, and you have number them all. My life remains in your hands, only you know my beginning and end. Too many times, I have cried out to end my life here so you can bring me home. So much misery and calamity and confusion when all I wanted was peace beyond all understanding. But you are the Lord my God, who is from everlasting to everlasting, who calls anything into existence, who predestines us to life, who creates the vessels made for destruction....
My God and Lord, What blessings have you bestowed upon me, my unshakable foundation, my Solid Rock, my cornerstone, the one absolute love that will never be shaken. But what is my response? I despise you I distrust you I think you will not be there for me. And I turn to other gods, and other comforts, and wallow in my sins, and let despair rest upon my soul But my beautiful Savior, you are the Shepherd who rescues the sheep, you are the Farmer who pulls the ox, you are the Christ that saves his people from their sin....
My God, I sit in awe of your wonderous works but more of your love for me your mercy upon me and your grace towards me. You sought me as a rebellious fool a beast towards you a wayward child. Nonetheless, you held me in your arms you cleansed me from all of my filth and promised never to let me go. You took away your anger and brought me your salvation....
O LORD my God, I sing praises to your name, for you are worthy and worthy to be praised. I have cried for help, too many times to recall How many times have you responded? All of them plus one more. I know I am with you, and because of that I am being healed by your loving grace My soul has been afflicted My heart has been scorched My body has been abused But you are my everlasting joy and the healer of all iniquity and sin....
My Blessed Redeemer, Who is like you, splendid in majesty high and exalted wonderful and amazing beautiful and all-together lovely. So I will sing this song, with all of my days because you are my portion and you loved me since forever. How many times have you rescued me from the pit of despair from the darkness of hell from the knife edge of death? I know not the countless times....
My Blessed Lord How many times, my God, must you rescue me? How many times, O Lord, will you come running when I call your name? But I am wicked and violent man, and violence has me surrounded on all sides? But you, O my Lord, rescued me saved me because you loved me from the very beginning. I need you, Lord, now more than ever. I am in desperate need of your hand to rescue me from despair and violence....
My Lord I will worship you with all of my days. You are my King and my God. and there is none like you. You called me to wait, and wait upon you, I will. Be blessed, O my Lord. ...
O Lord My enemies have been numerous, and they attack me relentless. They do not rest when I am sleeping, they even attack me in my dreams. My scars run deep, my bones break. But you, O Lord, are my healer and my restorer. You sent your Son to care for the sick and wounded. Be attentive to my pain and I will rejoice before you. You are the sweet love of my life forever....
O Lord Every single adult who were suppose to love me and care for me did not. My father raped me. My mother abandoned me. My grandmother threw me to the wolves. My step-mother neglected and beat me. But you, O Lord, have never stopped loving me, even when everybody else has. You have called me into this world, only to glorify you. You have declared that I am in the world and not of the world....
My Lord Protector Who has been my shield and my armour of my life? Who has been my home my roof and my foundation of my worth? Who has been the sanctuary the keeper of the fire and my spirit inside of me? You, O Lord, are my only one and my heart's desire and I long to worship you. Save me, my God, and keep me close. My heart keeps trying to run away, from the only Father I have ever known....
Beholder of my Righteousness Countless times, I lie in wait in darkness and despair. Even when I knew you and was known by you, I have never seen such misery. It did feel as though everything was against me and I knew no wait out. But you, O my God, did not abandoned me. You did not leave me in hell. Even when I was scared and wanted to run away, you were not like other fathers that wait for their kids to come back....
Beholder of my righteousness You are my Lord, the defender of my heart the rescuer of my joy the protector of my life. The world, life, Satan, and sin, might circle me might entrap me might try to take my life. But you, O Lord, are my strength and shield. my ever present help my healing in my gaping wounds. I do not be so presumptuous that I have anything good before you that my heart is upright in your presence that any of my deeds are good for you....
My Steadfast Lover My enemies have long shamed me and I have been beaten to death. I have decided, "My Lord is not for me, I have been forsaken." "There is nothing left for me, there is none I am call to. Let me waste away to death and turn back into dust." But You, O Lord, have been my God, since before I was in my mother's womb. Since then, I have been hurt and afflicted, left confused and driven to desperation....
My Ascended God All of Creation is yours. It belongs to you, And you rule overall. Yet, despite my own wickedness, and corruption you sought me. You would even descend to become man. So that in you, you would be my righteousness. You are the Worthy Lamb who was slain. Only you, my Lord, can open the gates of heaven. Only you, Jesus, can set the captives free. Only you, my Redeemer, saved a sinner like me....
My Dearest God You were mindful of me, before the foundations of the world were formed by you. You did not merely saw, but you knew me intimately from the inside out. You knew that my heart was desperately sick filled with sin and far from you. Yet, I was formed by your loving hands inside my mother's womb. You have been my Lord since I have been at my mother's breast....
My Lord and God, Your Son has shed his blood for me, so that I now believe. Your Son has given up his life, so that I might live forever. You have taken my sin-filled heart, and my wonton desires, and replaced them with your own heart, and my desire is only for you. Because you have done it all, to save me to yourself, I am yours. Come make your home in me, Lord Jesus, come into my heart....
My Blessed Redeemer, Your Word stands true. For you have declared that, your law is perfect and it revives my soul. Your testimony is *sure*, turning my foolishness into wisdom. Moreover, your precepts are always right, my heart rejoices. Your commandments are pure, now my eyes can now see. To fear you is my righteousness, I will be with you forever. Once more, your rules are truth, and right-standing altogether. I desire you, O Lord, more so than all the riches....
O Lord, Tender mercies, you have given me every single day that I life. I was so far from you from your will and your flock and your heart. But I was never more than a mere breath away from your mercies for me. Even in my wickedness, your kindness towards me was your continuous call for me to come home to you. My God, Keep me close to your heart and do not let me stray....
Great God, I am reminded what Christ declared: You alone are good. You are the source of all good but my heart flees and wanders from you But in your Word, you declared me holy because you are holy. you declared me righteous because Christ is righteous you declared me justified because you alone justified. Then because of who You are, I am awashed in your grace upon grace wake up to new mercies every morning abounded in your steadfast love....
My Lord I am reminded of all of your sweet blessings. You are my inheritance. You are my portion. You are my lot. Because you are my Christ, the Son of God, in whom is my All-of-all. My God, you have called me into your family and I share my inheritance. But just as you drank from the cup, I gladly and with great joy drink from the cup. I am yours and your are my Beloved forever....
My God Because of everything your Son has done for me, I now walk in the power of Your Spirit. He leads me. He guides me. He teaches me. He reminds me of what You have said. He reminds me of my righteousness. He reminds me that I am your son. More so than that, He is the seal upon my heart and the promise of your strength. And because He dwells in me, I fear no death....
My God, I have been crushed and discarded a hundred times. But, I have warred against you thousand more. Yet, you sent your Son to live and die for me. And now I live for you. I will never understand why you saved me, but I only know that because I have sin much You have forgiven much. Now I know you let me sit at your table, when I should been condemned for treason....
My God, It is the might and strength of your protection on my life and heart that gives me peace. That no other thing in all of creation can ever separate me from you in the name of your Son, Christ Jesus my Lord. Nothing ever compares to you. You alone are powerful and worthy. Thank you for protecting me. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for calling me your own....
My Lord and my God, Even when I was dead, you called my name. Even when I was lost, you found me. Even when I was blind, you touched my eyes and opened them to see. Even when I was deaf, you opened them to hear. Even when I was hard-hearted, you took my heart of stone and gave me your tender heart. Even when I couldn’t know you, you gave me Your Spirit....
My Great God, How many times have you rescued me from not only eternal death but certain death and doom? How many times have I sinned that did and did not lead to my death? The answer is countless. The truth is infinite. But yet, you are my great God and Savior! I have fallen into the abyssmal pit too many times to count. But because of your grace upon grace, you were deeper still!...
My Precious God, I am often reminded of my sinful ways of the past. As the vines grew up from my heart and slowly and surely tightened around my neck as I continuously die without thought But you, my God, broke the spell of the sin over my life. But time after time, I see those weeds grow. I feel the cancer thriving in my heart. I sense the sin that crouches for me and waits to pierce my soul with his poison....
My Lord, I perish without you. I cannot live without you. Apart from you, the hole in my inner being remained infinitely empty. Without you, I strived and pushed and pulled and made idols and did whatever I need to do in order to fill my soul. But all of it comes up empty. But you, O Lord, not only fills my heart to the brim but gives my soul b and new life....
My Lord You are the fountain of true life. I am dead without you. It is not that I can find this water on my own. For I am lost and, my soul is dried-up and dead. I have no wisdom, strength, or spirit to find you. But you, O Lord, rescued me. You have brought me into your life and in your life alone, I am <em>fully</em> alive. My soul is no longer dried in sin but restored, covered, and filled with your forever grace....
My Lord You are the Prince of Peace. Where you are, there I find satisfaction of my wearied soul and find perfect peace where I can truly rest. Apart from you, I die and I perish. Away from you, I am only tormented by confusion and despair. Without you, there is nothing but destructions by my own hands and by everything around me. But you, O Lord, call me to enter through you and abide in you....
My Lord Above, I thank you for your perfect provision. You are my Good Father in heaven and because I am your child, you have always provided for me. When I was younger, I wanted many things but you did not provide them. But looking back, those things I wanted would have harmed me or cause me to turn away from you. But what you have always done is gave something even better, which turned out to be actually good....
You are my Good Shepherd. You fled the ninety-nine in order to come rescue me, when I could not possibly rescue myself. You saved me from certain damnation, you’ve rescued me from the slaughter. You’ve taken all of my sin, and you let the wrath of Father fall upon your heart You bled out for me, so that I might live forever. Lord, keep me in your care, I pray that you keep good shepherds to care and feed me....
My Worthy Lord, Let my words and my songs be a sweetness to your ears. For I know that you sit on the throne of our praises because you are the God who alone saves. I know that not only are you willing and able to save, you and you alone are the only one who is mighty to save. So I praise you with all of my breath and strength and life....
My God in Heaven, There is none like you! You are God who sits high above all of my sins, my hardness, my wickedness, my trespasses and my calamity. You are exalted far above all of my gods. But in your steadfast love, abounding grace, and tender mercies, you saved me! You sent your son, Jesus Christ, to come live and die for me. More than that, your Son rose from the grave and conquered all of the sins, hell, Satan, demons, and death once and for all....
Almighty God, Who are you, my Lord, whose glory fills the entire earth? Whether I am in the heavens or make my bed in hell, you are there with me. If I ascend the mountain of your glory or wander in the desert of the wilderness, you are face to face and closer than a whisper. My God, you are never far! You are with me! Always. While I might feel desperate or despair sadness or anger or happiness, you are with me and within me....
Dear God, My enemies are on all sides and their attacks are relentless, you are my protector. When lions clamp down on my guts, you are the teeth-breaker and my healer. When I am buried, you call me out of the ground. When I was dead in my sins, you lived, died, and rose alive so that I might live. You have never left me. You have always been with me even when I did not know nor loved you....
Dear God! Who am I that I have been rejected a million times and despised a million times more? You say, “Speak of my love” and it falls on deaf ears. You say, “Speak of my power” and it means little to the strong. You say, “Speak of my glory” and their eyes remain blind. However, you saved me. You made me with your hands. You are the one who started my heartbeat....
God! Where are you? I am in trouble! Sin and wickedness have surrounded me. Everything goes dark and cold. Satan and his minions look upon my flesh with lust and hunger. Temptations are too much. I cannot do battle. My muscles are weak, small, and frail. I cry and scream: HELP ME, O GOD! But you are my powerful Champion. You are the people’s Savior. You are invincible. You are forever strong....
My Lord and My God, My focus is far from you, the one who sets up Kings and puts them down. I have been distracted by the choosing of kings rather to place my focus on the King of kings. It is in you, O Lord, where my strength resides my salvation is present my heart's desire my soul's fulfillment. Be my provision. Be my grace. Be my mercy. Be my life....
If I cry out for you, will you answer me? If you alone made the provisions and the sacrifices, will you save me? Even if I don’t understand you, will you reach for me? I need you, Lord. I don’t even have the wisdom to reach my hands up to you. I want you, God, and my heart is still filled with sin and wickedness. I have you, my Lord and my God, because I have your Spirit within me all because of what Your Son has done for me....
My God, Yet, you transported from the spiritual to the material. You cut across space and time. You _personally_ opened my eyes, gave words for my throat, opened my eyes, filled my heart, and gave me understanding so that I may know you. You gave me rest for my soul, removed the curse from my tongue, made me your son and you glorified me. You called out to me so that I might have life....
I was once so far from you. I was once lost. I was once your sworn enemy. Instead of casting me out, you sought me out. Instead of leaving me lost, you found me. Instead of leaving me to die, you found me and gave me life. Instead being at war with me, you call me friend. You are my only hope. You are my life. You are my salvation. You alone hold the words of eternal life....
Who is like you, my Lord? Who is like my God? The one who has saved me and never abandoned me. The one who is my shield when fiery arrows have scorched the skies. The one who has called me righteous and equips me according to his own righteousness? The one who has given me the speed to run to him in times of trouble? The one who has set me upon the mountaintop to see his awesome glory?...
You are my Way, I am a man with little mercy. My life is filled with shame. My heart is ridden with cancerous sin. My will longs for the wide path well-traveled. I cannot think I am better than a prideful man because I am that prideful man. But you, O my Abba, have cleared one singular particular definite path to you and that is through your precious Son, my Christ my Savior and King....
My Lord, My hands are not clean. My hands are washed in my own sin. They stink of feces and dung. If you judge me according to what I have done, then surely I am damned! What hope do I have in myself and the works that I have done? I have nothing to give you, God. But you knew. You knew and you came to be born as a man like me....
My Lord, You are my All-in-all. Beyond my Provider, it is by your very thought that you hold me together. By your will, I am pointed in your direction. By your great Spirit, I have strength. You give unlimited might for this very weak man. You put an immovable foundation beneath my weary feet. You are my home where I can peacefully lay to rest. You are my rescuer and it is in your arms, I know I am coming home....
O Father, You are God of the Universe. Holy, righteous, just. High above my idols. High above my sins. High above my faults. High above the twisted wickedness of my own heart. In no way could I have ever approach you. But you, O Lord, abundant in mercy and rich in grace, made the way. You sent your Son to come get me. Now I am yours. I am your son....
My Lord, I have gone everywhere. I have not found any good apart from you. When I turn away from you or try to find _not You_, my sorrow and grief run deep. It crushes my hearts and buries my soul. When I try to give life to my idols, they give nothing back because there are no other gods. And I die. When will I realize that you alone are my All-in-all?...
O Lord, How could I possibly worship you? I am not worthy to commune with you and be with you. I sin even now. My heart strays. My soul wanders. Yet, you, O God, are not far from me. When I am in the wilderness, you are closer than a whisper. When I have fallen, you set me back up on solid ground and you rejoice over me with singing....
O Lord, I would say to you, “I have not forgotten you.” But what about those times I succumb to the wickedness of my heart, to the depravity of the world, or to the lies of Satan? What about those times? What about those times when I am devoid of strength and I do not turn to the one who has my infinite strength? What about those times when I rely on my rational thought process, the very good gift that you have given me, instead being depended and led by that very Giver, the Spirit of God, by which I am declared to be your beloved son?...
O Lord, You have not forgotten me. You have not hidden your lovely face from me. Your comfort and wisdom warm my soul. Your joy and hope fill my heart all the day long. You are mindful of me and when I call out your name, you answer me. You have answered me by saving me. You saved me by giving Yourself to me. One day, I might stare down Death, but when I do, I will only see a crownless king with a broken scepter who has been stripped of power where there is little left to wield....
My Lord, My legacy has already passed through my lips. I have nothing but strongest bitterness and the most potent venom to come out of my mouth. I have lied. I have manipulated. I have cheated. With my snake tongue, I have tried to get others to do my bidding, believing the lie that I am the one that needs to control them in order for my soul to be at peace....
Dear God, I have seen the volley of artillery rain down all around me and You, O Lord, my precious shield, have absorbed their attacks. Yet, the enemy’s sharpshooters have taken careful aim at my heart. Their fiery bullets have pierced my chest. Their lies have penetrated my mind. Their blasphemous words have laid weight upon my soul. It hurts me so. But You, O God, are endlessly faithful: Faithful to save....
O Lord, My sin wakes me up from my slumber. At my weakest, my iniquities flood my mind. My mind is not sharp. My soul is asleep. In the pitch blackness of the night, I cannot see. Sin is like a ravenous, rabid dog who sits upon my chest, waiting to devour me. I can smell it’s breath. I can taste the poison stench. My eardrums break from the deafening bark....
Dear Lord, I will not and cannot list what I _think_ you have not done for me. That is preposterous! What you have done for me, in me, and through me is too great to even list. But I thank you so much. I thank you for you are absolutely good, absolutely merciful, absolutely gracious, and absolutely love. These I know of you and know you well. God, you are high and exalted far above all creation, including any little thing I might create with my mind and my hands....
My Lord, Our Lord, Your name is known throughout all the earth. Your fame knows no bounds. Your glory will not be given to another. Your love is simply unmatched. And who you are and what you do is not determined and defined by the world around me. You are defined by your thoughts, your mind, your heart, and upon your revelation alone. I ask not for you to reveal more than what you have already reveal for my mind and soul and heart can barely comprehend your fullness now....
O Lord my God, It might feel like the world is against me. I might feel like I am a being persecuted. But the real battle is not the world versus me but rather, my own sin and my own iniquities versus the spirit inside of me. Dear God, my very best works and all of my good deeds before you are nothing more than used menstrual rags and bags of crap....
My Holy Lord Above All, My deeds have warranted not your affections but your attentions—attention to correct my path. However , it is not simply that, it is more serious, more deadly than that. I continuously want death. I continuously want counterfeit. I continuously want less. You, my Father, don’t want that for me. You want life for me. You want truth for me. You want the most for me....
My King and my God, My heart grieves. My soul groans. I am in need of your Spirit. My own pride has kept me far from you. My own arrogance has caused you to look away. Yet, I am in need of your holiness—the very thing that keeps me far is the very thing that keeps me close. Clean my lips. Give me your heart. Remove this poison from my throat....
Dear God, Help! You have helped me in the past and this time I still need you. I have dismissed all the lies around me. I still need you. I still need your love. I still need your mercy. I still need your grace. Give me your hand. I need to feel your embrace. I need to feel your warmth. I know you are always with me. Right now, I will lay in peace....
My God, In my finite perception, my circumstances would seem to say I am in despair. I feel that. I feel that onslaught. I feel that pressure. Many would say, ”Ah, your God has failed. Your God is not good. Your God does not deliver. Your God does not save.” They would be wrong on all accounts. When I turn away from all of my oppressors and turn towards you, I see the loveliness of your face....
My Lord, I am set apart, this is true. But set apart by you to you. I reach out to the world, plead to the world, and with the Spirit, invite the world to come into Your loving embrace. Few do. Many do not. How can I respond? You are my Lord above. You are my King on high. All things, both spiritual and material, are yours. All truth and all philosophies are under your sovereign hand....
O Lord, Like a child, I have fallen and all of my strength has left me. As my precious Father, put me back up on my feet and hold my hands so I can learn to run to you. Give me your strength and might. Give me your word and your promises. Oh, how you give to me. You give me your love and you see to it that I make it back to you....