Essence of Faith
For all of my life I have pretended to be in fear of nothing And certainly not you But I was crippled by fears of rejection betrayal abandonment and not being loved I did whatever I could to harden my heart so I wouldn’t have to feel. But I was sad alone confused angry and bitter. I was so lonely. And my life was worth nothing. And remember when I tried to be the good guy? Outside I was nice and honorable. But on the inside? Full of wickedness and sin. Heart was filled with perversion. I am afraid but I know this to be true: a million times more wicked than my dad. Oh Lord. My heart is bent toward lust and sin. Save me Lord. Do what you must. I cannot cannot cannot go back to hell I refuse to. I will not. You must do what you need to do to ensure that I don’t go back there. Save me Lord. Do what you will to keep me from there and to you and in you and by you forever. Amen.