The Psalm

Psalm 51 (CSB)
For the choir director. A psalm of David, when the prophet Nathan came to him after he had gone to Bathsheba.

1 Be gracious to me, God, according to your faithful love; according to your abundant compassion, blot out my rebellion.

2 Completely wash away my guilt and cleanse me from my sin.

3 For I am conscious of my rebellion, and my sin is always before me.

4 Against you—you alone—I have sinned and done this evil in your sight. So you are right when you pass sentence; you are blameless when you judge.

5 Indeed, I was guilty when I was born; I was sinful when my mother conceived me.

6 Surely you desire integrity in the inner self, and you teach me wisdom deep within.

7 Purify me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

8 Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

9 Turn your face away from my sins and blot out all my guilt.

10 God, create a clean heart for me and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

11 Do not banish me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.

12 Restore the joy of your salvation to me, and sustain me by giving me a willing spirit.

13 Then I will teach the rebellious your ways, and sinners will return to you.

14 Save me from the guilt of bloodshed, God— God of my salvation— and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

15 Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise.

16 You do not want a sacrifice, or I would give it; you are not pleased with a burnt offering.

17 The sacrifice pleasing to God is a broken spirit. You will not despise a broken and humbled heart, God.

18 In your good pleasure, cause Zion to prosper; build the walls of Jerusalem.

19 Then you will delight in righteous sacrifices, whole burnt offerings; then bulls will be offered on your altar.

The Prayer

You Are My Restoration 
I cannot fall back into wickedness
  I cannot sin again
  I cannot be apart from you
  I cannot

I don't want to live
  If I cannot be in your presence
  You life is my life
  And I choose not to live without you.

Any sin left on my heart
  I need you wash it away
  Bring it up
  Give me the gift of repentance
  So I can turn away
  And turn to you.

Do this every moment of my life
  I have done everything
  The world
  My friends
  Work
  Satan
  Demons
  And sin
  Told me to go after
  And all of it is crap
  I find it wanting
  It is lacking

You have been the only thing
  That I have ever experienced
  That has given me perfection
  Perfect in love
  Grace
  mercy

You are better
  You are more
  You are righteous
  You are far above all of my gods.

I hate this world
  And I want nothing from it.

Take me home.
  Cleansed me of sin
  And take me home
  You are so good
  And there is nothing left here for me.

Amen.