Thinking Through Ministry: 1 Timothy 1:1-2 What Do I Believe About God? [Part 3]
Last updated: 08 Jul 2020 18:40
1 Timothy 1:1-2 Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by command of God our Savior and of Christ Jesus our hope,
To Timothy, my true child in the faith: Grace, mercy, and peace from God the Father and Christ Jesus our Lord.
God the Father
I was molested and abused by my dad from when I was 7 to about 11 years old. In the middle of that abuse and neglect with a mom who abandoned me at five, a stepmom who also abused and neglected me and a grandma who looked the other way and would believe her son over her grandson, I heard the gospel of God.
I know that I know I did not believe and trusted right away. I tried. But the comforts of porn and lust were too much for me to let go. I never repented and was only sorry when I caught with porn. When I moved out of my grandma’s house to join the military, I could bathe in the sin of pornography and lust to my heart’s content. About the same time, the internet was becoming a household item. My entire goal in life was to get faster and faster internet connection with faster computers that could hold more and more data so I could feed on more porn. So much so, my addiction led to me working for several porn websites during my twenties.
But then, things changed. I can’t explain it but the porn business dried up and I could no longer make a decent living at it anyway. I was still madly addicted but in this time, I felt the wind of the Holy Spirit upon my heart and soul.
I say all of that to say, I know that I know that I was not saved by God until I was 32 years old–years after that moment and past the divorce from my first wife.
But here is the work of the Holy Spirit in my life at a young age: God revealed to me who he was and how my evil, perverted, sick, twisted, sinful dad was not God.
And for me, that realization started when I was seven years old.
I remember one particular day, my dad just finished molesting me and then I went into my room by myself and decided to read my Bible. As I am reading through the Old Testament, something I realized full stop: this God in the Bible is like a Father and He is actually good. My dad is the complete opposite of this. Therefore, God must be who he says he is and by what he does. My dad is evil because of what he says he is and by what he does.
While there is no way my Biblical theology was advanced at the age of seven, I knew several key things in that reading:
Genesis God is creator. My dad is not.
Exodus God is rescuer. My dad is not.
Leviticus God is the righteousness. My dad is not.
Numbers God counts us as his own. My dad has no authority in that.
Deuteronomy God is holy. My dad is certainly not that.
When I got saved, I often think about those times and see God’s hand upon my life.
So here’s how I see God the Father according to the Scriptures:
Joshua - God is Commander Most High
Judges - God is Judge
Ruth - God is Redeemer
1 Samuel - God sets up and takes down kings
2 Samuel - God calls
1 Kings - God is merciful
2 Kings - God is gracious
1 Chronicles - God provides
2 Chronicles - God is patient
Ezra - God is reverent
Nehemiah - God is our city
Esther - God is our deliverer
Job - God is God
Psalms - God alone is worthy to be praised
Proverbs - All wisdom and knowledge comes from Him alone
Ecclesiastes - God is worth it
Song of Solomon (or Song of Songs) God is my Beloved and He is mine
Isaiah There is no other God
Jeremiah God is the Shepherd who takes best care of his sheep
Lamentations God is with me in my mourning
Ezekiel God is Lord over all nations
Daniel God is Lord over all other lords
Hosea God is relentless
Joel God is coming
Amos God is Lord over all classes
Obadiah God is God over Gentiles
Jonah God will have his word proclaim
Micah God is justice
Nahum God is vengeful
Habakkuk God is the righteousness of our faith
Zephaniah God is rejoices over us
Haggai God dwells with us
Zechariah God is in the end
Malachi God is the keeper of his promises
Matthew God will save his people from their sins
Mark God has all authority
Luke God has entered in with us
John God is Father
Acts of the Apostles God empowers
Romans God will never leave us
1 Corinthians God is the holder of all knowledge and truth
2 Corinthians God is generous
Galatians God is the giver of life
Ephesians God thought of us before the beginning of time
Philippians God was joyful to save us
Colossians God triumphs over death, Satan, and demons
1 Thessalonians God has chosen us
2 Thessalonians God will come again
1 Timothy God is the King of ages
2 Timothy God breathes out his word
Titus God saved us
Philemon God repays
Hebrews God is finished
James God gives grace
1 Peter God leads us home
2 Peter God loves us
1 John God is love
2 John God is the source of His commandments
3 John God is good
Jude God saves and destroys
Revelation God is our all in all